“You want to talk about my poems but those are not words
I have to give you. I am busy still living in the city where we
fell in love. I’ve papered the walls of my bedroom with maps of the places that leave your name on my tongue. This is not the best way to forget you but it’s better than drinking alone.
This black line snakes across the river from my apartment to
your dirty kitchen. I miss the way your breath felt on my neck. I can’t say I miss you without flinching
The blue dots are the bar stools where we drank whiskey as
I apologized for being a world-class bitch. The green star is the diner where we got coffee the first morning we woke up
together. I want a tattoo of the first morning we woke up to- gether. I want the memory to hurt.
There is a burn mark at the center of the Hawthorne Bridge and you know why. We don’t need to talk about it. I am so
sorry. I am the wrong kind of strong.
I am mad at you because these days being mad at you is as close as I get to kissing your forehead. It keeps raining but nothing looks cleaner. Everything in Portland is a postcard saying “Wish You Were Here!” So many of the books in my bedroom used to be your books.”—Everything in Portland Is A Postcard Saying “Wish You Were Here!”, Clementine von Radics (via fuckyeahbiboy)
1) “Some people grumble that roses have thorns; I am grateful that thorns have roses.” ― Alphonse Karr, A Tour Round My Garden
Kind of like seeing the glass half-full. Focus on the positive. Focus on the beauty instead. There’s simply no point focusing on the negative aspect of everything and feel down about it. There is beauty in a lot of things, even yourself.
2) “You can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will.” ― Stephen King, On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft
Despite what’s going on in your head, you’re absolutely capable of doing anything. You can because you are. You should because life is short. Don’t let a bunch of less-than-perfect thoughts hold you back.
3) “Stop letting people who do so little for you control so much of your mind, feelings and emotions” – Will Smith
More often than not, negative thoughts come from your surroundings i.e. the people you’re with. And unfortunately, we let the negative people get to us. Don’t. These people don’t matter. So why let them make you feel less than great?
4) “Always think extra hard before crossing over to a bad side, if you were weak enough to cross over, you may not be strong enough to cross back!” ― Victoria Addino
I personally think that all of us are repressed on a certain level. We think of revenge, serving justice on our wrongdoers or just not wanting to care. But we hold back because we don’t want to get in trouble. This is an ironic cycle as we keep asking, “What if?”. Nah. We should stop thinking about this altogether and just try to be happy. As the quote states, we may be too weak to cross back, and that’s how regret is made.
5) “If you are positive, you’ll see opportunities instead of obstacles.” ― Widad Akrawi
Everything has a piece of goodness in them, even if it’s hard to see it. I say, just open your eyes and see it then. Life isn’t perfect, so you might as well start reaping the goodness than keep complaining about it.
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I get easily depressed. Maybe it’s already a severe condition. Maybe it’s not. Either way, I realized that I get depressed to the most little things. I always assume the worst on everything and everybody. That’s where my depression starts. It gets worse when my assumptions are correct.
When I’m sad, I always think of different ways to end my life. I give up on life that easily. Because that is the only way I think I could make the pain stop. It may sound selfish of me but the hell, you’re not the one who is going through my pains. To make matters worse, I keep this all to myself. I don’t tell anyone because I know no one will understand. My feelings and thoughts are that weird.
I’ve always been an image of laughter and fun. No one saw my sad side. No one ever noticed the times that I don’t feel okay. No one did because they are always hidden in the mask of my smiles and the sound of my laughter.
Maybe I am the problem. Maybe I should be more open to people. Well how about a no? Like I said, I know no one will understand. No one will give enough shit to listen to all my silly and weird laments. No one will cry with me when I tell them that I’m depressed because my father ignores me. No one will cry with me when I tell them that my friend is mad at me because I was trying to make him and his best friend make up. And no one will cry with me when I tell them I feel like a slave in my own home and my family don’t give a shit.
But you know what? During these moments, I would always try to find myself in the arms of my mom. That even though she doesn’t know what was happening with me, she will return my hugs and kisses. She will always answer “Yes.” to my question “Do love me?”. That even though I’ve already given up on life, just seeing her will make me change my mind. Because I love her that much and I will keep fighting whatever bullshit I have in my head so I can make her dreams come true.
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Ako kasi yung nagbago eh. Naging busy, hanggang sa tuluyan nang napalayo yung loob ko at paminsan-minsan na lang ang post. Reblogs or instagram na lang nga madalas.
Don’t be lazy. – The world doesn’t owe you anything; you owe the world something. So stop daydreaming and start DOING. Develop a backbone, not a wishbone. Replace laziness with determination. Laziness is being unable to find the time you have. Determination is being able to find the time you don’t have.
Don’t cower from life’s necessary challenges. – We work hard to discard the parts of our lives that were painful, difficult, or sad. But just as we can’t rip chapters out of a book and expect the story to still make sense, we cannot rip past chapters out of our lives and expect our lives to still make sense. Keep every chapter of your life intact, and keep on turning the pages one at a time. Sooner or later you’ll get to a page that brings it all together, and you’ll suddenly understand why every page and chapter before it was needed.
Don’t just take the default path. – Be a voice, not an echo. Speak your truth, even if your voice shakes. Find the courage to bring your ideas and dreams to life. Don’t compare your progress with that of others. We all need our own time to travel our own distance. It’s perfectly OK to be different.
Don’t wait for the perfect time. – There’s never really a right time for anything in life. There’s always going to be something in the way, someone coming to visit, someone leaving soon, the time of the year, the weather, the money, your mother, your brother, etc. Whatever it is, there will always be something or someone whispering, “Now is not the right time.” Do it anyway. Don’t wait for the perfect time; it doesn’t exist.
Don’t put on a mask. – You can’t let people scare you. You can’t go your whole life trying to please everyone else. You can’t go through life worried about what everyone else is going to think. Whether it’s your hair, your clothes, what you have to say, how you feel, what you believe, or what you have… You can’t let the judgment of others stop you from being YOU. Because if you do, you’re no longer YOU. You’re just someone everyone else wants you to be.
Don’t hide your humanness. – Sometimes you have to deal with issues and show others your awkward, uncomfortable side. It’s perfectly okay – it’s a natural part of being human. And the good news is that these tough moments will often show you who will accept you at your worst and who won’t.
Don’t make everything seem like a chore. – Life is a privilege; act like it. Instead of feeling like you “have to” do so much, incredible shifts in energy levels, happiness, and effectiveness can happen when we focus on the fact that we ”get to” do all of these things in our lives.
Don’t try to conquer everything in a single leap. – Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different? Remember, the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step. So just take one tiny step today. You won’t regret it.
Don’t focus on past problems. – Never let the ghosts you knew in the past overcrowd the possibilities of the present or have you over-complicating everything in the future. In life, the test often comes first, before the lesson. Take a deep breath and think… Your past was never a mistake if you learned from it.
Don’t think about what could have been. – Chances are if it should have been, it wouldn’t have been. So say it out loud: “There was another life that I might have had, but I am having this one.”
I know it will take a while. But I believe that it is better this way. I know it is just an assumption that I think what I feel is one-sided. It’s better if I just let it go and spare myself from whatever pain I might get in the way. I just don’t want to get hurt. And I don’t want to lose him either.
So I believe that it’s better if we just remain good friends.